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fitbefore40 · 03-11-2008, 11:52 AM

Hey guys - if anyone reads this thread still . . . my light at the end of the tunnel has arrived. For the past year, I dealt with not seeing my body for what it was - and frankly - it just took a while for my head to catch up.

I've had the chance to compete in quite a few tkd tournaments lately, and when my division is called - I usually end up being the lightest one (age and height classifications) - and NOW I ACTUALLY SEE IT.

I don't know how it happened - but it was gradual. I still will grab a size 4 pant to try on every now and then - but I'm pretty much a 2 in everything. I can look around in a store and notice that most of the women are bigger than me . . . that's not to sound boastful or anything, it just that I didn't have that perception of myself for months. One other thing that came about - I now see myself as short . . . I KNOW I have always been short . . . but when I was heavier, I felt taller . .. now, I'm just a petite thing.

A few months ago, when someone would say that I was "so small" I'd protest and say something like, not really . .. or I'm not THAT small . .. now, when someone says that - I simply agree and move on with the conversation.

I hope eveyone will be able to reach this point soon.