Poor thing! (((((BIG BIG HUGS)))) I feel just how drained you are and I just ache for your heart.
Listen, this past year for me was a big lesson on Dark Gifts. The things that are given to you that seem to be icky but are actually for the best. Let me explain. My grandfather had a heart attack. I was scared and sad but then I started to look at it as a gift. I hadn't seen him in about a year and this scare made me realize that I needed to spend more time with him. I had my back windshield busted one night and I was furious! They didn't leave a note or anything. It was going to cost me money I didn't have to fix it up! But it turned out that the cop who came to take my report had a wife in marketing who hired me for a job! These are Dark Gifts.
If you had the operation while you were sick, you could have died and then you WOULD have been "fat for your entire life". You were given a gift to have the surgery and live so that you would not be fat your entire life. Yay for you! I know it's hard to see it that way right now and you have every right to pout and be upset and we'll be here for you while you do that. But when you're ready to take a deep breath and get back on your feet and take your Dark Gift and be thankful, we'll be here for that,too. I'm so proud of you for coming here to vent! That alone takes some fire and shows that you ARE NOT finished yet! Yay Mina!!!!
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