88Shelly88

I know that a few of you have been following me and offering wonderful advice, which I appreciate immensely! Today I am kind of having a few set backs which is frustrating. I told my step mom about wanting to get the surgery. We have a great relationship overall. She is not hip on the idea and thinks that it is way to risky. Well now it turns out that she is in San Diego this week. She just got there today and mentioned the surgery thing to my step sister and my step aunt. Might I mention ALL of whom are very thin and have never had any weight issues or health problems. Now she calls me today saying that my aunt knows someone who had died from complications of Gastric Bypass, la, la, la. I told her that I am having this done for health reasons and that it is much riskier for me to live my entire life being obese than it is to have the surgery. I also said that it is easy for her to say things like this when she has never EVER had a weight issue, nor has anyone in her family. :O(

Then today of course "PUNCHSKI" day at work. (SP???) My boss was back by the doughnuts and she asked if I was going to have one. THIS IS THE BOSS MIND YOU THAT I AM SCARED TO TALK TO. (I decided to hold off until I know when I can have the surgery after I meet with the surgeon and see what the insurance co. says.) I told her NO that I was not really a doughnut person and that I am on a strict diet right now. I said something to the effect of "yeah I need to loose some weight because it is getting pretty bad, and that I have tried everything.) Her comment: "I do not think that you have tried everything."

Needless to say I am just so scared about all of the adversity. I am usually one who is never afraid to stand up to anyone but now I am for some reason. The fact of the matter with work is that I need to get my time off paid short term disability and I do not think that it will be a problem. It is just having to explain everything to my boss who never understands. For Goodness sakes she freaks when I am 5 minutes late and I have a 9 month old baby that I am running around all of the time and trying to be a working mom. Sometimes life is just so hard.

After talking with my mom, NOT MY step mom, she thinks that I should tell her that I am going in for the gastric bypass but that it is a personal decision for my health and that I would like to keep the details private as it is emotional for me to discuss my family history of weight/health problems.

Sorry to rant on and on. I just needed to vent. I know that someone here will identify with me. Thanks for listening. *tear*