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Originally Posted by MiladyB
I understand what you are saying, Paige. Why is it so hard to see ourselves as we really are? I honestly don't see myself as "fat" anymore but I do still see myself looking at other women thinking..."wow, if I only looked like that!!" Only to realize that I DO look like that!!....or at least that's what my family and friends tell me. *L*
I thankfully don't struggle with the clothes issue like you do. I am in that size 6-8 but I do find myself drawn to those younger looking clothes. *L* Must be because I never did get to dress like that when I was younger....then I dressed in those "MOM" clothes.....sheesh...no wonder I'm having an identity crisis...I'm doing everything backwards.  |
Beth, first I want to say CONGRATS ON 2 YEARS!!!!! You have done just wonderful!'
You were the first person that I found on here and have helped me so much. I want to be just like you when I grow down!!!
"I sometimes find myself wrestling with feelings that I don't deserve this "goodness". Or wondering if this too is only yet another one of my dreams. Am I going to wake up one day to find myself once again over 300 pounds? I get on the scale and I still find it hard to believe. I still can't wrap my mind around the number I see on the scale because those are the numbers that I have only experienced in my dreams and I have been so programed throughout my life that when it comes to my weight my dreams will never be a reality."
This sounds so much like me. If I ever get under the 150 mark it will be a first since I was in high school, so long ago and I felt fat then, (well, I was still 35lbs overweight)
So from 150 on it will be totally a new experance for me.
" Now that I have tackled so many of the physical demons it is now the time to work on "me". Sure, there are many times I fall back into old patterns,
I see it often but now at least I recognize them and I can face them before they pull me under."
This is so beautifully stated, I especially like the part about not letting them pull me under, I have been pulled under a lot and now have to look hard to recognize the patterns.
I really look up to you and your accomplishments. You are a real inspiration to me, thank you so much,
Your friend, Ann