Glad to see you
and glad you didnt' stay away to long... you add such value to this board.
I was reading your post and thinking that I sturggle with many of the same things specifically the other day I found myself talking to myself and saying I looked so much better when I had meat on my bones. 116 is just to small for someone like me... who is someone like me? Obviously since they make the clothes there are other size 2 people out there.... so who is someone "like me"?
Could it be that "like me" means fat? Can I really only see myself as fat, chubby, slightly larger?
The other thing I struggle with these days is appropriate clothing. I mean I dont' want to dress like my 22 year old daughter but we have fairly close to the same figure. The clothes I've always been comfortable wearing "mom clothes" also know as preppy...are just so expensive and usually start around size 4 like at GAP... I'm having a terrible time finding stuff.
I've been shopping in thrift stores for so long because you go through so many sizes so quickly.... now I'm small enough that they hardly have anything in my size. I just wnat to be normal and based on availabilty normal falls somewhere between 6 & 12....
Anyway I guess my point is that super fat or super thin I still struggle with body Identity.
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Open RNY 9/26/06 Height 5' 4"
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