Amanda, so good to see you posting again, sweetie. It sounds like you have had a rough year but I see a strength coming out in you despite all of the struggles. Emotionally you are still learning, like many of us. We feel the pain on a level that we didn't before because before we would drug ourselves and bury it with food. It is a well learned pattern and one that takes a long time to break as you have probably recognized in yourself. You aren't the only one who struggles but don't be afraid of those struggles because we can come through. Just recognizing them is the first step, which you have done and you have already taken action. I'm proud of you for that! I really am! Don't be afraid of the emotional roller coaster, embrace it just like you embraced your weight loss after the surgery. There is no way around it than to go through it but there is peace and happiness on the other side. I'm sure of it!
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Beth
Little Victories; Grand Rapids, MI
Bariatric Support Group
CherishedTeddyBear-(TT Bear Lover)
The Poetry of Milady
New Beginnings: My Journey to LIFE
359(BMI: 58.8)/ 148(BMI: 24.3)
Highest/Current
Diabetes, high blood pressure, sleep apnea, high cholesterol,
peripheral vein disease, joint pain and 211 lbs GONE!! 
Century Club: July 3, 2006
ONE-derland: Dec. 22, 2006
Double Century: May 29, 2007
Goal: June 15, 2008
Lap RNY: 1/30/06-Dr Randal Baker
TT/BL: 09/21/07-Dr Ronald Ford
PS Revisions: 04/29/08-Dr Ronald Ford
Gallbadder removal: 06/09/08-Dr Randal Baker
"...if we pay attention to the fact that we can move,
breathe, feel, laugh, cry and notice sunsets,
there is cause for joy."
-Geneen Roth
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