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triciaknox · 04-21-2005, 07:27 AM

Hi Kim, and all the other newbies,

I know where you are coming from. Even though I was a HUGE person I was very healthy and had few co-morbidities. I was really scared that they would say that I didn't need the surgery. Then I have died 3 times on the operating table in the past, so did I REALLY want to go through that??? Should I tempt fate again? Then the emotional issues were there too, abuse galore in my life, plus I really loved food. I loved making it, I loved serving it, I loved eating it. Then I took a REALLY good look at my body in the mirror, opened my eyes and made myself see me. Not a pretty sight, let me tell you. And I stood there and I said "If this is what food has done to me, well it is no friend of mine, cause a friend would not do this to another friend." You know, that has helped me so much. I am not 6-1/2 months out, down 130 pounds, and I feel GREATTTTTTTTTTTTTT! I am at the point where depression seems to hit, but I have been lucky so far and it hasn't. I can now eat just about anything I want to eat, with the exception of those things that I just can't tolerate now. I am able to do more, and I am getting a LOT of notice.........and I am still a big gal! The attention is hard to deal with, but I am making myself deal with it. Yeah, maybe I need a professional too, but I doubt I will ever go to one. I have a very low tolerance for "bull" and that is what most of them seem to dish out. Been there, wouldn't put up with it. Keep hanging in there Kim, talk to us, and, well, I would say stop worrying, but that would be ridiculous to say. Soon enough though you will be on my side and then watch out world!