If you really knew me...
You would know that I'm afraid to die alone but am even more afraid to fall for the wrong guy and so I tend to push them away.
You would know that I have never had a boyfriend.
You would know that I would love to have a baby and would do it on my own but only if I was guaranteed to have a Boy, and since I'm not, I won't risk having a girl.
You would know that even though I have a big family, I feel really lonely and it bothers me that they constantly tell me i'm weird, even if they are joking.
You would know I flunked first grade because I couldn't read, but when I graduated high school I was at the top of my class.
You would know I hate compliments.
You would know I rather think something bad is going to happen, that way I won't be disappointed, and I hate when people say, oh don't be so negative, it helps me cope, what's wrong with that.
Blay
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