I know how you feel. I was the same way. Having WLS was the best thing that I have ever done for myself. It took me a long time to decide to have it, and then I had to fight for it, and I'm glad that I did.
You will be able to eat "normal" food again. You don't have to eat soft mushy food for the rest of your life. I am 9 months out, and can pretty much eat anything I want. I have lost 104 pounds. I went from a size 24 to a size 14.
TRUST me it was worth it for me.
I hope that things get better for you. Keep me updated on your progress and what you decide to do, and remeber you are part of our family now, so welcome.
