I haven’t had my surgery yet, but I have lost a significant amount of weight several times in the past, and in a way I understand what you mean when you say you start getting unwanted attention and then feeling disappointment in people, because they treat you differently. But I noticed something about myself, after I would gain the weight back, it was me that was acting differently, and so people were treating me differently. I would actually start dressing differently, putting on make-up; I would be more out going and flirt a little. I realized that maybe it was me that was actually keeping those guys away by the way I was acting before losing the weight. It’s funny thou because sometimes no matter how many times you might have learned the lessen it doesn’t seem to sink in.
Seven months ago I met this great guy, nicest guy you could ever meet, and he asked me out at my highest weight ever, 360, and I turned him down, I honestly don’t feel worthy. We have become friend since then and he finally stopped asking me out after I turned him down for the 100th time, and now that we have become friends he is telling me about going out on dates and I hate it, because I know I let him get away. He has been really supportive of me having the surgery and even that makes me mad, I keep thinking, ok, well if you liked me before why do you want me to change now. I really think I’m mental sometimes, but it’s hard to change, and I know once I get the surgery things are going to change even more, I just hope I learn how to deal with this changes, because if I don’t I’m going to end up in the same place as before.
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