I have felt the same way at times. I think it's all part of this amazing transformation-inside and out. I've run the whole gamut from being downright angry with all the gushing attention to being angry when no one seems to notice. Go figure that! I've also felt a sense of guilt over receiving attention for my weight loss (where does that come from??) to feeling ashamed because of how awful I must've appeared to everyone before. It's all part of the whole process and I just keep working my way through it. It certainly helps to come here to talk, we really do know what we've each gone through- at least the actual surgery and subsequent weight loss part anyway. I went to a therapist before my surgery and continue to go now, though less frequently now for many good reasons! It's something I have brought up many times at my appointments - and it seems all our feelings are "normal" - whatever normal is. We all probably have a love/hate relationship with attention and it's being magnified now. Keep working through it. We are losing and growing at the same time - hard work.
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