Barbara and Tonya
I know exactly how you feel. I've always felt unworthy of anyone's love. My history of sexual abuse ingrained those feelings in me. Then, in my first serious relationship, I chose a man who was emotionally unavailable and psychologically abusive, just perpetuating my feelings of unworthiness.
It took a major mental breakdown and years of therapy to repair some of those feelings. I found my husband after a lot of hard work on me. Then it took me over two years to believe that my husband really, truly, unconditionally loved me. I kept thinking he would leave me. Now I can say it and really believe that he's in the relationship for the long haul--good, bad or ugly. That feeling is a wonderful thing.
Good luck with your progress and journey for self-love. You're worth it!
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Dara
Open RNY 4/27/04 Dr. Callery
10-15 lbs. above goal weight and okay with it
Be who you are
and say what you feel,
Because those that matter don't mind
and those that mind don't matter.
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