Thanks everyone,
I feel safe here, which is nice. You've all been or are where I am physically, and you get it. There's not a lot of places I can feel this way. At one point my husband was giving the eat less and exercise more lecture to me, and I suggested he carry around an extra 100 lb sack of whatever and see how much he felt like jogging or working out. He never said it again.
I miss my huney though, he's in Las Vegas for work (no REALLY) and won't be back until Friday. The boys are missing him too, and my youngest, Joey had a nightmare last night and was screaming, "Mommy, mommy, mommy" I went running to him, and he was asleep. I stroked his arm and head, and he lifted up a bit and said, "Oh you're here." And then went right back to sleep. He's such a precious little guy. James was in the bathtub when my huney called so he didn't get to talk to his daddy. He was really sad about that, but when we tried to call back, there was no answer. John (huney) told me he was going out with his best friend, so I figured he wouldn't be able to hear his phone.
