Hi there, I have read and researched GB for 3 years- I am lucky as I found this site before I even saw my surgeon and you guys have been amazing. My op is scheduled for 25 October and before I had a date I was revving all over the place making sure my enthusiasm would encourage those around me not to be so negative. I have read all those people saying that they don't think they can go through with it and thought- are you nuts- this is the most fantastic opportunity. I have read all the posts that people say they have felt like hell for about 2 weeks but all of you would do it again in a heartbeat.
But now- I'm so scared. I'm scared of the fluid diet(10-14 days pre-op), I'm scared of the op( dying under aneastetic) and I'm terrified of the feelings that I would rather die post-op.
I can't see the wood for the trees, I can't seem to focus on the thinner healthier me on the other side.
My husband and I had a minor spat last night, and I thought- I can't have this post-op- I'd rather die. He has promised to love and support me through this but I'm
Help me!
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Celeste
Highest/pre-op/now/Goal
141.3 / 139.2 /107 /80 kg
310 /306/236/176 lb
33 kg(74lb) (6 stone!)
Slowly edging out of second platuea- shh don't talk too loudly
Rebirthdate: 25/10/2007
GYM RAT #44
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