Debz

...the only person in the world that this surgery doesn't work for. I'm 3 and a half weeks out and haven't lost a pound in the last week. Yeah, yeah, I know all the things that y'all are gonna say...plateau, it happens to everyone, it'll pass...but it's just so damn frustrating to not see the numbers go down.

I'm thinking of tossing my brand new really cool scale...because it hates me. I swear it does. It talks about me behind my back...and stares evilly up at me with the same old number. I swear I can hear it cackle when I leave the room. Treacherous bitch....LOL.

I feel like I rerouted my innards and wound up with this stupid diaphragmatic hematoma just to lose 25 pounds....period. I feel duty bound and way too stubborn toward all the people in my life who questioned my decision, to admit buyer's remorse out loud, but it sure is tempting to admit it quietly in my heart. I know intellectually this will pass...but I guess I'm having my own pity party. And I can't even have cake at my own damn party! How fair is that?

I guess I'll just go tie a knot and hang on...maybe I'll clip my toenails and see if that makes the scale move....

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Debbie
Lap RNY 8/6/07
Highest/Day of surgery/current/goal
251/237/133/130


Goal! I did it!
104 pounds gone since my RNY
118 total pounds gone forever!
I finally have a "normal" BMI
Reached my first goal of 145...and setting a new one of 135.
Reached 135 and have decided to lose another five if I can.

I'm in the 130's for the first time since puberty!

TT Gym Rat #95