I wanted to thank everyone on this thread as well who have shown support. I know I had a field day yesterday with a few, and I personally am sorry that it happened that way. I will PM a couple who I want to personally apologize to. I am really scared, I've prayed with a couple of my dear friends on the phone.. and I am still paralyzed with fear. I guess the fear stems from the heartburn doctor telling me that if I had my surgery reversed my stomach would never work properly again. He said I had to have my stomach removed, and so I am in fear of that happening. I know if it does I will be sick for life.. because of my experience with dumping early on with GBS. I think I worry about this more than the reversal happening. Also worried about another 10-20 lb weight loss while my old stomach is coming to life again. I'm sure that once it does work and I can eat solids again perhaps I will be able to gain the weight back more easily than bypassed. I know I've developed much better eating than before, and I don't obsess about food like I did in the past. Will it change? Kind of weird being in situation where you have no idea how long you will be in hospital, recovery, eating, etc. My whole life is going to change once again. Sometimes I think life can be so cruel. Janie
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