Zen.. I think that if you took a sampling of MO People.. and picked thier brains, you would find we all are afraid of something.. or hiding from something. I know I am still MO.. but I also recognize some of my fears. I come across with gobs of confidence.. but inside, I am always afraid that if people could see the real me, they wouldnt like me. I have been working on that for years... to stop the facade so to speak. My fears are all social related.. I cant walk into a bar by myself... I cant go dancing.. I cant.. oh wait.. Guess I should say I WONT.. because deep down I know I CAN.. I am just afraid of it...
The other day I was thinking about signing up for some therapy, and after reading this post.. it really may be something I need to do.
Not to ramble on.. but just wanted you to know that you are NOT the only one that feels it.. now.. if you figure out how to deal with it.. you have to let us know that too!
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Jen 
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July 9, 2007.. my re-birthday!
Century Club: November 17, 2007
140 Pounds Lost... I'm not Going to Miss them or even TRY to find them.. they can stay lost!! (And if you see them... RUN.. you dont want them either!)
"Life is 10% what happens to you, and 90% how you respond to it" ~~ Lou Holtz
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