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jerseygrl684 · 05-08-2009, 12:29 PM

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Originally Posted by Debz

Cookies don't love me, cereal won't make me feel confident, and chocolate covered cannolis are not going to make me a better person. Only I can do that. There is no true comfort in food. There is, however, comfort in old behaviors, until you realize what they cost you...and I really want to believe that this insight is going to lead to a true lasting behavior change for me.

Hey, my name is Debbie, and Im a foodaholic. Thanks for listening, my friends.

Choc covered cannolis make me a better person

. I love that you have the guts to stand up and admit all this. I admire you for it, because instead of giving up and letting food control you, like an addict would, you are standing up to it and basically CONTROLLING YOURSELF. You can do it, I know you can. IF you feel the urge to eat or if you feel you are emotional eating, you know you can ALWAYS reach out to me. I'm attached to this blackberry.

Does this mean no lunch for queen bitch and her lil baby bee bitch?

Debz · 05-08-2009, 01:25 PM

Thank you all so much for your kind words of support. You guys are awesome. I thought I was going to post this and get my ass flamed off. You all inspire me to keep up the good fight and move forward. Again, from the bottom of my heart, THANK YOU.

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Originally Posted by watfam4

I do this too. No one can be expected to not fall of the wagon every now and again. It is times like these that I am soooo thankful that I had WLS. Regaining after diet success before WLS was devastating. It is still disappointing post-op, but it is now a mountain I feel like a can climb.

Thank you for the mountain idea. It makes me feel like so much less of a failure.

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Originally Posted by noholes

Deb,

I do want you to know that I was sitting here on the couch, was actually "not" going to exercie today until I read your post. I have to stick to my plans and can' get lazy..Thank you from me...

Amy

You're welcome. And, truly, thank you too.

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Originally Posted by GrandmaRose

Whew! Deb, it's not just me!

I've been really frightened ever since I found out that I could eat just about anything now! The only things that give me trouble are solid meats, and I am not addicted to meat! We have Kwik Trip stations everywhere you look and they make the BEST glazer donuts! And sugared coffees. And rolls. And ice cream.

Love,

No ,honey...it's surely not just you. But I do have to tell you you're wrong about one thing. I know your Kwik Trip doughnuts are good...but nuthin' beats a Krispy Kreme. Krispy Kremes are the reason flour, fat and sugar exist. Thanks for the prayers.

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Originally Posted by jerseygrl684

Choc covered cannolis make me a better person

. I love that you have the guts to stand up and admit all this. I admire you for it, because instead of giving up and letting food control you, like an addict would, you are standing up to it and basically CONTROLLING YOURSELF. You can do it, I know you can. IF you feel the urge to eat or if you feel you are emotional eating, you know you can ALWAYS reach out to me. I'm attached to this blackberry.

Does this mean no lunch for queen bitch and her lil baby bee bitch?

And you, my l'il crumb bun...you made me cry. Thank you so much for your words

Godsblessedme · 05-08-2009, 02:08 PM

girl i have to ponder this post because many times (speaking for myself) get flamed for eating things that werent the "best" and more often times then most, many flammers were doing the same thing just NOT admitting it! (whew had to get that off my small chest)

Well by admitting your ARE an addict is the 1st step to your recovery. The most simple answer is to get your shrunken a$$ back into the gym and sweat away those guilty pounds. We should ALL be able to indulge every so often but like you, when i indulge i dont know when to quit thus i may buy one of those individual cakes eat 1/2 then i toss the rest i make sure to toss it because if not i will want to keep eating and then probably go buy more!

Give yourself a treat once a week and that can be your incentive towards good work all week. Now enough reading and get to that gym sista!

mistymee · 05-08-2009, 03:05 PM

Well Deb... as the others, I applaud you for the honesty that you've posted. I know when I had my chocolate meltdown, posting it here publicly really did help me a lot to stop- it was like now that my friends here knew what I'd done, I could stop hiding it and by not hiding it.. putting it out there for all to see made it so much easier for me to stop doing it.

I don't know why but it really did help me. Plus the fact that they convinced me to tell my DH which also helped me even though he didn't judge me and he doesn't police me.. just being honest to y'all and him made it easier for me.

Along with getting your behind back into the routine of exercise, perhaps taking the time to weigh, measure and log your food & beverages for a while might help you get back into the habit of making good and healthy choices. There are several free programs available for this, from FitDay - Free Weight Loss and Diet Journal to Calorie Counter, Diet Tracking, Food Journal, Nutrition Facts at The Daily Plate and Free Diet Plans at SparkPeople to name three (I'm not familiar with the last one but of the other two, the daily plate is my preference for the free programs)

Doing this has really helped me a lot to keep myself honest. When I go over my calorie/fat/carb goals I can at least tell where I went off my 'plan'.

Anyway, I sure hope you don't get flamed by anyone- so far it looks like you haven't.. none of us are perfect, that's for sure.. and most of us will stumble on occasion. You CAN do this.. you've already proven it to yourself that you can by getting back to 134 so just keep it up! Best of luck to you.

Debz · 05-08-2009, 03:25 PM

And Kel, lunch is still on...I mean, I still do hafta eat, right?

staraex · 05-08-2009, 03:38 PM

its a battle and you just gotta fight through it! much support!

jerseygrl684 · 05-08-2009, 04:19 PM

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Originally Posted by Debz

And Kel, lunch is still on...I mean, I still do hafta eat, right?

Yes, I guess that whole eating thing you still gotta do. I'll be driving right by you next weekend, i'm going upstate for a babyshower off exit 21 on the thruway. I'll be with the fam or I would stop. We will figure something out, right now focus on that food monster you have in your house! It's worse than having the swine flu

Godsblessedme · 05-08-2009, 04:49 PM

OMG Kelly!

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right now focus on that food monster you have in your house! It's worse than having the swine flu

LMAO!!!!!

OsoDelDesierto · 05-08-2009, 05:33 PM

Deb, you are awesome and I'm glad you posted about your struggle - you are to be commended for your honesty, not flamed for your imperfections. I know exactly what you're going through - food addiction is hell to deal with, just like every other addiction. Thank you for the reminder and the wake-up call.

My weight is still where I want it and I'm now back to my Body Pump class at the gym three times a week (post-gall bladder nightmare), and am considering taking up cycling or swimming additional days per week, but I eat lots of crap that has no redeeming nutritional value and really need to watch my eating. I appear to be able to consume virtually unlimited quantites of certain simple carbs (brownies!

Trader Joe's Triple Ginger Snaps!

). The carb monster can be in many places at once, and he's hanging out with me in AZ while he's also tormenting you in NY...

This is a battle that we will fight for the rest of our lives, and at times we will have more trouble with our addiction(s) than we think we can handle, but we CAN win that battle, and if we do what we need to do each day, we WILL win. I have absolute faith in that, and in you, Deb. Love ya madly!

Squishy · 05-08-2009, 06:34 PM

Hi Debz!
The carb monster is alive and well here in Minnesota too! I have been very fortunate to maintain my weight so far, but I am tempting fate with some of what I have been eating lately.

You are absolutely right that it is an addiction. Imagine a heroin addict who had to have a little heroin every day but then stop at that amount. The treatment for most addictions is to completely stop them. You cannot do that with food. You still have to eat. I think that makes this an incredibly tough addiction to break.

Like you, I can force myself off of most of the carbs and, after a lot of effort, I can break the cycle. Then I eat a little of something I shouldn't and the uncontrollable cravings come back with a vengeance! I will fight the carb monster for the rest of my life. Most days I will win. Some days I will not.

I am proud of you for writing the truth of your situation. We have probably all hidden our eating habits over the course of our lives. This is a place where we don't have to hide.

Hang in there my little friend!
-Mike-