I am just wondering?
I wonder if your husband might have had an experience unlike your own as a child that he might or might not be aware of? This would certianly explain his behavior. I am so sorry that you have to go thru this. It does not matter the why's.. but that it is. These are your feelings now, and therfore are important and need to be addressed, so do not feel badly for doing just that, after all you have tried to address the issues many times in different ways. From reading your diffrent threads on this forum, you seem to be a wonderfully vibrant person , who is funny, likable, and caring. You need to be nurtured as you bloom into the "you" that you should have been. A rose bush needs to be watered, fertailized, fed the proper food, protected from the elements, and pruned the correct way, at the right time in order to give us the beautiful rose buds that it is capable of giving. This process is a never ending process that if done accuratly, will keep the bush blooming for years, and years. If not the bush will be stunted, only giving a few roses that will not mature as nicely or be as full a bloom. We too need to be..deserve to be nurtured. I wish the best for you in this hard time of contemplation. Why is it that nothing ever seems to be easy?
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bballmom
9-15-04
lap, Dr. C
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