You need to realize that some of the fear you are experiencing now is that you are starting to mourn the loss of a friend....food. It isn't unusual to be having second doubts. I think a lot of us went through that. But like Van said, your relationship with food changes after surgery. I never thought I could do it. I failed at so many diets and I loved to eat! It was one of my best friends! Well, it's 16 months later and I have lost 200 pounds. NEVER in my wildest dreams did I ever think I would be almost to goal in only 16 months. Only you know what is the right decision for you but the nerves and the grief for the loss of your relationship for food are totally normal.
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Beth
Little Victories; Grand Rapids, MI
Bariatric Support Group
CherishedTeddyBear-(TT Bear Lover)
The Poetry of Milady
New Beginnings: My Journey to LIFE
359(BMI: 57.9)/ 143(BMI: 23.1)
Highest/Current
Diabetes, high blood pressure, sleep apnea, high cholesterol,
peripheral vein disease, joint pain and 216 lbs GONE!! 
Century Club: July 3, 2006
ONE-derland: Dec. 22, 2006
Double Century: May 29, 2007
Goal: June 15, 2008
Lap RNY: 1/30/06-Dr Randal Baker
TT/BL: 09/21/07-Dr Ronald Ford
PS Revisions: 04/29/08-Dr Ronald Ford
Gallbadder removal: 06/09/08-Dr Randal Baker
"...if we pay attention to the fact that we can move,
breathe, feel, laugh, cry and notice sunsets,
there is cause for joy."
-Geneen Roth
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