CLAIRE

I Talked To My Supervisor The Other Day About What I Was Feeling. I Told Her That Getting All The Compliments I Get Now With Being So Much Smaller, From My Co-workers, Is A Mixed Blessing. I Get Anxious And Am Trying To Be Gracious And "take It In". Sometimes I Just Want To Run!!. The Other Day I Had To Go In Our Training Room And Get Away For A Moment Just To Breathe And Get My Anxiety Down. She Offered To Tell People Not To Do It So Much And I Told Her No That If I Want That I Will Tell Them Myself. I Want To Be Able To Accept Compliments About How I Look And Feel Good About It Too. It Is A Learned Response And Just New To Me.
I Have Been Working With This In Therapy And With My Partner. I Have Good Friends At Work I Can Talk To About It As Well. As Time Goes On It Is Geting Easier Than It Used To Be. No Mater What It Is Very Exciting This New Life And I Savor It All Including The Anxiety Because I Got A Compliment Hehe.
Btw....i Saw Kelly Today And We Discussed A Goal Weight For Me And Settle On 150lb. Not The Old Insurance Chart That Would Have Me At 115 Lb. This Feels Good To Me. Soooooo......

278/175/150


Claire