Thank you all so much for the responses. I would love to answer each of you individually, because each of your posts said something to me. I will try not to 'down' myself further though...point taken there.
I guess there is a lot going on besides weight loss. I'm a SAHM of 3, I started Tae Kwan Do and am working on my next belt, I took up aqua-size at the same time. I also run a home business, run kids from one activity to the next 4 days a week. I am also in school again, part-time and was recently asked to join an elite honors society for academic performance. That is pretty stressfully in itself because I have to keep a GPA of 3.8 or above and this semester I have two very HARD classes which I have been freaking over. (Anatomy & Phys. and Medical Term.) I am constantly on the run, studying, stressing or working. Most of the time I am eating something before I even realize I am doing it. It reminds me of when I first quit smoking and I would automatically reach into a pocket for the cigs...even though they wouldn't be there anymore. Like an old habit not yet broken. I guess I am reaching out for food to fill in....fill in....I don't know what. You guys are really amazing at helping me think this out though.
And sadly, I don't have any other support groups I can go to. My group here is full of old timers who know it all and newbies who know nothing. I don't recall a meeting that ever talked about feelings and emotional dealings with Food. (We don't have those lovely West Coast meetings around here....ours are mostly technical based.) Which is why I posted this here.
I guess I will just keep on reading, and thinking and digesting what I am hearing. Something is bound to Spring from it, right?
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