A Cry for Help...
Well, here I am, sitting where I have seen others sit, wondering how in the world I could do this to myself. I am 9 months out, 30#'s shy of MY goal and I am SCREWING UP ROYALLY!
I gained 5#'s back over 3 weeks ago, which screwed up my 100#'s gone! Of course I didn't change my signature, that would be admitting to failure. Yet here I am...three weeks later, still 5#'s up.
I know what's wrong, I understand that I have no will power and that I can reason my way through eating 15 girl scout cookies a day. Yep. I am not proud, and I seriously need some self control, something!! I am working out, but not as much as I should and If I was reading this post, I could point out the things wrong with it and what to change in order to get the scale moving again. I KNOW THESE THINGS....I am just struggling to listen to my own advice. WHY AM I DOING THIS? Someone please explain to this dumb stapler' why I am willingly and knowingly sabotaging my own hard earned efforts at success?
I have managed to rid the house of cookies, except for the ones I don't like, (for the kids). So why is it, that I am sitting here admitting this, and still find myself glancing over at cookies that I don't like? What the hell is wrong with me?
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Zen
LAP RNY June 5th, 2006, Genesis Medical Center, Iowa
257 / 140 / 139
Start / Current/Goal
Plastics 8/7/07, 12/15/07, 6/5/08 - Dr. Aric Eckhardt
AKA: ZenBear
If you can't be a good example, then you'll just have to be a horrible warning!!
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