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very strange thing just happened and I am not sure why. I have been collecting information about my past weight loss successes and failures to help build a compelling case for the doctor and insurance company.
I have been going through photographs to include with the spreadsheets I have kept over the past few years, thinking that this would make it more visible than just numbers on a page. I know I tend to over-prepare for things, but I really want this to go through.
So tonight, my son asked me why I was looking for pictures of myself. I just said..."just something I'm working on." A while later he asked me again, so I told him what I was doing.
My wife immediately said "I don't think you need to do that."
My son chimed in and said something about my ovethinking it.
My wife immediately added something like "you have already proven that you need it"
There were a few more similar statements by both of them in rapid succession and then my son started to say: "It's like by gathering pictures you're trying to...."
And at that moment, I cut him off and yelled at them both: "Would you both just shut up!" and left the room.
First, I don't tell people to "shut up." It's just not me. Second, I don't know why I had such a strong reaction. It was definitely bothering me that they both felt like they could/should tell me what I should or should not be doing to convince the doctors and insurance company. It's not like they have any experience with this, but my reaction was very inappropriate and out of character. I know I am in for worse than this from other people as I go through this process, so I cannot be this thin-skinned.
I also don't understand
their reactions to what I was doing. This is not the support I was expecting. The text above probably does not convey the tone of their reaction very well. They were both talking really fast and overlapping each other and it really felt like they were all over me about it.
At first my son and daughter were not happy with my decision to try for the surgery and I told them that it was not something that I was taking lightly and asked him for his support.
My wife has been supportive and wants to have the procedure too. Her doctor is saying that she does not think that she has tried consistently enough to eat properly and exercise. This is probably true.
Is it possible that my son is just scared and is hoping that I change my mind? Is it possible that my wife has some resentment that I am progressing in the process and she is not? Were they just trying to help? Am I overthinking this???????
Who was that man that showed up and yelled at my family?
I better end this for now. I have some apologizing to do.
-Mike-