Well guys, my surgery was on 1/22/07 and I made it thru. I was in the hospital thru Thursday. It really has been a very emotional 7 days since the surgery. You see, my father passed away on the morning of my surgery- I found out literally 3 hours before I had to be at the hospital. So, needless to say, I did go thru with it, but it seems as though last week was just a dream and now I've kinda woke up- but I still have to deal with everything. I am not going to lie.... I still want to eat everything normal. It can be so sad at times, watching my little ones eating the normal foods and then I have to just WAKE UP and realize that this is going to be great... I'm already losing and it's not that bad. Maybe it's the culture down here in Louisiana. I mean, one of the state tourist motto's is "Some states Eat to Live, but here in Louisiana, We live to eat!" So
I KNOW that about 97% of this is psychological, and I am dealing with that, but it still is very hard. Maybe its because with the loss of my father- eating would be a comfort? A way to mourn- you know like the post funeral stuff, everyone gets together, the spread of food is crazy, and in the end you have just eaten you blues away.... UGH. Anyway, I guess the real reason I am spilling my guts about this all is because it takes one to know one... Did you find the first few days to be hell because you simply missed the norms you used to have? Maybe I am nuts? Ahhh, its probably the protein talking... YUCKO... But seriously, in all, I am very excited about "the new chapter in my book"-the one I am creating everyday. It's just that it has been very hard to cope with everything and I miss my old friends (those being bread, pizza, potato chips, pasta, jambalaya, etc.) I am telling myself not to dwell on it, and it works, I find other things to do and think about, but it really can be hard at certain times.... So there's my story!! Hope everyone is well and all us "newbies" are all healing well. Later guys!!!
