Did I feel I was worth it, yes, but for the reasons of I was needed to provide love and nurturing to others, personally and professionally. I needed to be needed as why would anyone want me around otherwise when I was so fat??? I will be 100% honest here. I now think I am sooo worthy to the point I am concerned that I am becoming a little self centered. Maybe that is just the sharp contrast to how insecure I was pre op and I am actually OK. Or I am making up for 14 years of vanity I didn't have. I don't know.
You spoke about your children and how they got into a fight. My 4 year old said the funniest thing. He is a very sweet boy and doesn't know from fat or thin yet. He said, "mommy, you are not as soft to sit on anymore".
Everyone has worth. We just need to realize it ourselves and not wait for others to bestow it on us.
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 DYANN
Lap RNY 1/4/06....
46/ 19.8/23.5 BMI's 167.9 pounds gone forever as of 9/12/07 116.3%to goal
294.4/ 126.5/150
5' 7''
Jupiter, Florida
Dr. Jefferson Vaughan: GBP
Dr. P Duddly Giles: Plastic surgeon TT/BL 03.20.2007
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