Simple... My doctor said.. "Dialysis for life, or lose weight". That was the moment I decided to do it. I could list a gazillion reasons, but that is the one that woke me up.
The other thing that I found out was that it was quite probably the reason I couldnt conceive. So, they figure once I lose the weight, I will be able to have a child... (Still looking for the man I want to have my kids every other weekend... *giggles* J/K!!!). But, I remember when I realized I wasnt going to have children how devestated I was. Over the course of the next 10 years, I kind of resigned myself to the fact that I wasnt going to.. but when tested, the only thing they can see holding me back is my weight. The thought of having a child is a big motivator too...
Don't get me wrong, there is a part of me that is dying to see what I look like once I have lost half my weight and embarked on a totally new life. (I'll probably strut LOL) But that is secondary to my health. I want to be Half of Me... wow... what a revelation! How do we walk around carrying that much weight? I quit smoking in November... (thank you Chantix!!) .. quit taking the meds for smoking a couple weeks ago. I can't think of myself as being a smoker anymore... I feel SO much better... I cant hear myself breathe at night anymore (and believe it or not, I think that keeps waking me up.. lol)...But, seeing how much better I feel makes me wonder, just how much better I am going to feel when I am thinner.
So those are my two big motivators... My kidney's and the chance at motherhood....
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Jen 
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Start/Day of Surgery/Current/Goal
July 9, 2007.. my re-birthday!
Century Club: November 17, 2007
140 Pounds Lost... I'm not Going to Miss them or even TRY to find them.. they can stay lost!! (And if you see them... RUN.. you dont want them either!)
"Life is 10% what happens to you, and 90% how you respond to it" ~~ Lou Holtz
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