I completely understand where you are coming from, at an early post-op stage. I remember thinking when I first began that everything would fall into place when it was supposed to. The only thing I didn't realize that even though I personally am a size 6 (not willing to try on those 4's yet.. lol) I am still very unhappy with my body. Maybe even more so than before. You see now I see something completely different in the mirror, a bathing suit.. NO WAY!!!
The thought freightens me.. I don't think I will ever be happy with my body.. unless it is fully clothed! I have extremely excessive skin where my fat used to be and the sagging and hanging skin tears at my heart. I still can't wear a sleeveless shirt because of my saggy arms. I had this major surgery to lose weight, get healthy and look better.. and I can't even wear a freaking sleeveless top.. or shorts that go anywhere above my knee because my thighs sag to them. So don't start beating yourself up now, you will have plenty of time to do that later.. or just do yourself a favor, don't beat yourself up at all.. it's a tough and grueling habit to get into..
We may never be completely happy with our bodies.. but we should try and be happy with ourselves..
