I was miserable for the first 2 months ... super emotional and would snap at the drop of a hat. My poor husband was a saint for putting up with me... i would have probably run away screaming lol. The first couple months are truely a "mourning period". I didnt THINK i had food issues but got slapped upside the head as soon as i realised i coudnt "cheat" on this one... even with something healthy. Food was well and truely off the table as a coping mechanism.... which is a HARD thing to deal with when its been there for you your whole life. It DOES get better. You learn to be social without food... which i must say was a TOTALLY foriegn concept, and you learn other ways to cope. The sun IS coming hon. In a few months youll be sharing your "man i remember THOSE days" stories with another board buddy in your current position. Promise.
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Rebeca
 340/185/170  5'9"
day of surgery/current/goal
Century Club August 30,2006!
Made it to ONE-derland! 12/25/06
Dr.Mueller
Surgery Date - 05/09/06
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