Well, I had my surgery 10/23, developed a blockage, had a 2nd surgery 11/6, and then got pneumonia, so am home, unable to work, on oxygen 24/7, and breathing treatments every 4 hours. I can tell you that when I was laying there in the hospital vomiting that week I had the blockage, and then again w/the pneumonia, I had DEEP REGRET about the surgery. I also had to stop my antidepressants (Effexor) cold turkey because for some reason they made me sick after surgery, so I was going through that too..although the morphine and demerol seemed to have masked any withdrawals..lol. Anyway, I've only been home now for 9 days, and already feel so much better. I still am not breathing normal, and don't know if I'll be able to be off the oxygen soon, or go back to work soon, but I am hoping so! I see the doctor next week! Anyway, my point to this long story is that this surgery didn't go as I'd planned AT ALL. I think it's normal to have regret when you are feeling like crap! I thought...hey, why did I do this? Even though I was fat, I was feeling fine! Why did I do this to myself? However, this week, I feel like a new woman! All of a sudden it's like I turned a corner. I hope that will happen for you soon as well. Now I am very happy I had the surgery and I know I will be so much healthier in the long run. Still, it's hard adjusting. I see commercials for food and think...man, that looks good, but I know I'll never be able to eat it...so yes, I think there's a bit of post-pouch depression that goes on...and I think it'll pass when you start to feel better and see the wonderful new you emerge! Best wishes to you for a speedy recovery and good feelings!!!
