I keep reading so many of your reports and everyone seems so happy about having had the surgery due to the weightloss, and although I am extremely happy about all the weight I am losing, I have suddenly over the past week started feeling realy down about it all.
The reason why, is that I am just so tired all the time (not sleepy tired, but physically tired), and I am always feeling naucious and have stomach cramps, a bit lke trapped wind.
I have just started trying pureed foods and as some of you may know from a previous thread, I tried an egg a week ago and was very ill, but then tried a mash potatoe last night and again, although I haven't actually been sick today, I have had the most horrendous stomach cramps and diarreah (sp?), which actually then makes me feel sick until it clears. I don't feel as though I have truly recovered from being ill last week, because prior to that, I had had no problems what so ever, I think it really took a lot out of me.
I even drink my protein drinks and for about ten, fifteen mins after, I kind of get an energy slump and don't feel too great then, anyone else have this problem??
I am now feeling really scared to keep trying anymore foods and I am always thinking of the future and if this is how it is going to be all the time. I was always a big social eater and loved going out for meals with friends and family, and although I know and am quite happy with the fact that my meal portions are going o be a lot smaller, I am so down that I am not going to be able to go out again. When I went out in the past, I really enjoyed salads etc so I am not looking at going out to eat "crap" food, but just to go out again.
I was also not a big drinker either, but every now and again, I like to have a couple of drinks with my friends on a night out, and again, I am worried that I wont be able to do that again.
I am sorry to sound like I am moaning here, and I am not under any false illusion that this won't get slightly better as I am only 4 weeks out, but I just feel like crying at the moment, because my head is saying "get up go out and do the usual things you used to", but my body is saying, "you must be joking"!!
I would love to hear off any of you that had the same kind of feelings as me now, but that it has all changed around for them.
I also kind of get angry at myself for having to go through all this to lose weight, just because I didn't have the willpower to do it myself.
Do you think I may be short of some vitamins as well, could that make me feel like this??
I think I am really beating myself up at the moment, but I know that all of you are so good, that I feel I can put down my feeling and get supportive but honest responses from you.
How lonf did most of you start feeling ok when you were eating??
Thanks so much
x
p.s I will probably feel better tomorrow ha!!!
