Hey sugar pea. I fight battles with my psychie all the time. Luckily I have meet a couple folks from this site who I talk to everyday, who help me through the stuff. Sometimes just being able to talk to someone about who cares, really helps.
I was talking with one of them this weekend about how exciting it is to lose the weight, but how frustrating it is to look different, also have people checking you out all the time. I dont like being the center of attention, never have perhaps that's why I got fat in the first place.. who knows. But as I have lost weight I do notice I am getting "noticed" more in public and it makes me a little uncomfortable... weird huh? You would think guys checking me out would make me feel sexy and good... ummm no. Not right now... not for me. It's still all weird. Also, we lose weight so fast the body doesnt catch up as quick... so now I am even more insecure about being seen naked. naked
relish the thought..... anyways I guess what I am trying to say is, there are alot of emotions we go through. One cool thing about being apart of this group is you dont have to be in denial about anything because somewhere there is someone just like you... struggling just as you are. Because I have this group, I dont feel ashamed. Because I have friends here I dont feel alone. I dont know if what I am going through is depression, but I feel like I do need therapy, I do have really mixed emotions about everything.
I hope all this made sense to you, and I didnt ramble too much. Answering your question was kind of therapuetic for me
Keep smiling... see ya on the other side.
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J.Bridget Fisher aka koi-pea
2/9/04 lap 5'11"
298/170-trying to lose another 10
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What Sawyer would call me on LOST: ladybug
"People will argue with you that getting what you want in life isn’t something you can learn, if you’re destined to be one of the worlds winners as opposed to one of its perpetual whiners, its because you have been born with the right talents and temperament and have a big dose of self-esteem, ambition, and good judgment." Kate White