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MiladyB · 09-20-2006, 09:40 PM

......I was so glad to be home and was so excited to be able to get into my own bed and actually get some SLEEP!!

My surgeon had me on a special bariatric product for 2 weeks post-op. Though it wasn't the best stuff it was nice to not have to think about what I was going to eat. If I ate 4 packets a day I would get what I needed when it came to protein. I was surprised how little pain I was feeling. I was tired but I was able to eat, drink and walk (well if you can call walking 3 doors down on the front sidewalk a walk!) *L*

For me "hell week" was delayed about 1 week. The emotions kicked in bigtime after about a week post-op and the euphora I felt about actually being done with the surgery kind of set in. I too began to question what I had done. I remember just breaking into tears for no reason at all! Suddenly what seemed to me to be the "real work" was starting.

Over the weeks and months since I had my surgery I have had my emotional ups and downs. At about 1 month post-op eating suddenly became an issue. I was tolerating food but I just didn't want to eat. I remember days where I just wanted to scream because everything I put in my mouth pissed off my pouch!! I struggled with the desire to eat for at least 2 more months until almost over night things started to get better. I suddenly realized that I was progressively getting more energy and I was starting to feel almost human again! *L*

As I look back over the past 7 months I still can't believe where I am now. In a lot of ways it just doesn't seem real. I never dreamed that within 5 months I would be celebrating that century mark!

Today, I am the lowest weight than I have been in over 20 years. Though I know that I still have a long way to go I am beginning to believe I will get there! It still amazes me when I look at what my life is now. My diabetes is under control without meds! My blood pressure is under control with only 1 med instead of 3! I am beginning to live life in a way I almost forgot about! I can walk not only a half of a block but 3 miles, without pain! I can ride a bike and climb up the small winding stairs of a lighthouse and still breath! I can take a hike with my family and go camping without being in pain from sleeping on a thin mattress!!

For anyone reading my words all I can say is that I truly believe that I am experencing a miracle and I am finding for maybe the first time what it means to be happy in myself emotionally and physically....

...the journey is only part way done and I want to continue to share with all of you all of the new things I am learning along this often difficult but enlighting journey. I'm excited about my future and who I am!