It seems I don't get to update here frequently - at least as frequently as I would like. It's been a long three weeks since I called the surgeon's office and finally today at 2:30 is my appointment.
I had a mini-stroke yesterday when I got a message on my voicemail that indicated that they would have to reschedule as Dr. Lord was going to have to be in surgery today. I had to collect myself (you know, suck in the pouty lip and all) and call them back. When I called they told me NEVER MIND. They said that at first they thought he'd be in surgery, then he wasn't going to be in surgery - she said it's been crazy but to just come on as planned. *WHEW* What a rollercoaster!
We've been working on trying to finish up the refinancing on our house/land and it's been such a pain in the @$$. It's been going on since the 5th of May and let me tell you, if it had been me dealing with this company instead of my husband, suffice it to say we'd have been using a different company a long time ago
. Anyhoo, I have learned that I am most definitely a stress eater. I never noticed it before but I am realizing that for the last 3.5 years that I've known my husband I've been stressed out. If it wasn't his ex wife being a witch and causing strife between my husband and his kids, then it was stuff like this refinance - nothing goes easy it seems. Soooo having said all that, I now qualify for BC/BS's criteria - I have gained the few lbs that I needed to qualify.
Learning this about myself also explains why I have gained so much over the last few years. I've learned that I can't really vent to my husband about the stress I'm under because he takes it personally and no good comes from it, so I hold it inside and eat to try to sooth the agitation....(hehe who needs a psych, this is all as clear as day to me now). That has to change!! I am going to go back to journeling again. Just typing out everything that is eating me, so I don't end up eating everything else
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Anyway sorry for the mini-novel, I just wanted to give a quick (yeah right) update on my situation. Please keep me in your thoughts today, I finally feel like I'm starting out on my true journey....and I've got major jitters.