Dara

Barb:

Buying clothes lately has been such a bizarre experience! The only word that seems to explain it is "surreal." I was in Las Vegas this weekend to see a rock concert and, at the last minute, wanted to buy something "rock concerty" to wear, like jeans and a cute top. So I ended up at Ross in Las Vegas--go figure!

Anyway...I don't know if anyone else does the same thing, but when looking for clothes, I can't just go straight to the right size. First, I go to a bigger size than I think I really am. It's as if I'm terrified to go to the right size right away--like suddenly it won't fit or something. (You probably think I'm insane right now.) But, for example, the last pair of jeans I bought were Calvin Klein stretch size 8 (yippee). They're getting kinda baggy on me and I like to wear my jeans TIGHT. So, I decided to try a size 6. But I didn't go straight to size 6. I went to size 8 and looked through everything...even picked two pairs of dress pants in size 8 to try on. THEN I looked through size 6 and got a couple of pairs of jeans to try. When looking for tops, I went to size medium first. Then I went to size small and picked out a couple of tops to try.

Of course, the DKNY size 6 jeans fit (!!!!) and the size small top fit (!!!!). What weirds me out is that I go to larger sizes first. It's almost a physical thing--like I can't force myself go to the smaller size first. I haven't shopped for dresses in a while and I know that when I do, I won't go to size 6 or even size 8. I will probably start at size 10 and work my way down.

Does this make any sense to you?! Any feedback you can give me would be appreciated. I hope I'm not completely losing it!

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Dara
Open RNY 4/27/04 Dr. Callery
10-15 lbs. above goal weight and okay with it